Good Moments

So I realized a lot of my latest posts have just been sort of insane and more on the depressed side of all the chaos in my life so I thought I would post something when life is going good. Right now life is going good. I am super happy to be back in Florida, even though I don't have a job yet. I am not worried about that so much anymore though, I have faith and I know something will come my way just in time and I'll be fine. I am enjoying my time off for now though, even though I've gotten into a terrible schedule of staying up until 1, 2, 3am and sleeping until 12, 1pm. I will have to change that when I start working, but for now I am enjoying it. I like having the time with my friends here who I love dearly. I watch them suffer in the program I dropped and have such empathy for them but secretly I am just gleeful that I am not in their position. But they are different people and they want it a lot more than I did and they will do fantastic.

I'm always thankful for the calm peaceful times in my life that allow me to reflect on how lucky I am. I have so many wonderful people around me who fully support everything that I do, it really makes me feel like I can do no wrong, I love it and am so so so thankful. I actually feel like I'm in a good place in my life right now. There are a few small things going on with my life that are chaotic and have the chance to cause some inner turmoil, but I guess that's life. I haven't quite fully figured out how to accept uncertainty but I think I am definitely learning and becoming more comfortable with it. It's a process, life is a process. I think the life lessons I've learned in the last year have been amazing and I am at a point where I can look back and appreciate all of them and feel good about what I've learned and how I can apply it to my life now and continue to move on.

I really have been feeling good lately. I have a feeling of accomplishment, which is one of my favorite feelings, and I think I have accomplished a lot in the last year. I think I'll just take this moment and live in it and feel it's goodness. I hope everyone can have times like this.

Decisions

Well, I have made a decision. After all that turmoil I finally feel at ease, mostly. I have decided not to continue with my program and instead move on to other things that are calling me in life. I am now back in Orlando, but I am not going back to school. I am going to just work for a while, have a bit of a life before I pour myself back into school. I think I needed a longer break than the six months I had. I am now looking at graduate schools instead. And now, drum rolls please.... dun dun duunnn! I want to go into psychology. Oh my graduate psychology friends, are you so shocked? I miss you so much! I have always had a love for psychology and it's always been a thought in the back of my mind and it's finally caught up to me. I really want to get into counseling, I think it would feed my soul and I'd be very happy in that field. So that's sort of my tentative plan now. I am going to find a job here in Orlando for awhile and give myself a bit of a break and a bit of a life, find some time to study for the GREs, eeek scary, and then get into grad school in Fall 09. That sounds like a good plan to me. But so far I am hating the transitions. I still don't like change and transitions and I don't think I ever will. I just need to find a way to get through them and take comfort in the fact that they're temporary. I know I will be okay, it's just going to be an interesting and adventurous time in my life, I should try to enjoy it. So yea, that's my life, full of curious details, I always wonder what's yet to come.